Sunflowers

Letter To Luci

I know I shouldn’t ask, but WHY?  Why does everything seem to be going so well, then, all of a sudden…BAM!!!
I just don’t understand, it hurts so very bad.  Am I being punished?  I was having such a  wonderful day, my toes in the water, toes in the sand, not a worry in the world, my God in my hand…I don’t think I can take this, I feel like I’ve lost one of my children or something, why does Satan take everything away that I love so very much?  First, my husband goes to Texas, to take care of us with a better job, then, all this stuff kept happening around the house, everything breaks down, my life is chaos, laundry piling up, house not decorated yet, not the first Christmas present bought.  Today was going so well.  Christmas Cantata practice last night was the best one ever, I’ve received so many blessings lately from it, been feeling better, not so depressed, then this.

Two hours ago, (it’s 9:30 p.m.m EST), my precious Luci~Goosi, part Sharpei dog was hit by two cars, they didn’t even stop to see if she was okay. She wasn’t.  She’s with my God now.  Luci 2001-2009, rest in peace my sweet angel.  Thank you for loving me and for being part of my life.  I’m sorry I could no longer protect you from the evil things of the world.  May you rest in peace, I will see you where the dirt road ends and the streets of gold begin someday.   I’m sorry I said I was gonna have to find another home for all of my animals soon, I’m so so sorry.  I’m sorry I didn’t give you kisses and hugs after work today.  You were so glad to see me, and all I had on my mind was getting the house cleaned so maybe I could feel better about going to church tonight and not feel so guilty b/c your brother, Tyler didn’t have any clean clothes, or b/c the floors needed to be swept and the dishes needed washed.  If the cat wasn’t trying to get out, I would’ve seen the gate was opened and you wouldn’t have escaped.  How am I ever gonna forgive myself?  When your BFF,  Tessi was killed the exact same way, five years ago, I said I’d protect you, I’d make sure you’d be okay.  I had to keep you on a chain to do it, but lately, you were being so good.  You’d go three steps to the grass, do your business, then come straight in.  I’d be standing there waiting for you, protecting you from escaping.  For all of the times you stood by me, protected me, the one time I should’ve protected you, I didn’t.  I know you loved me, and for that, I am thankful.  I am thankful for the eight years we had together.  I remember buying you in the Wal~Mart parking lot.  You were full of fleas and the person, or should I say, ‘thing’  that was selling you, was probably selling you for evil money.  She had piercings and tattoos everywhere.  I didn’t want to think bad things of her, but I felt so bad for you.  I knew when I saw you, that if I held you and looked at you, you’d be mine forever.  And I did.  Something told me to.  I just remember wishing I took your brother as well.  Yall were the only two left of the litter.  At that time, $25.00 each was scarce.  I remember telling your daddy to pay the ‘thing’ and we were on our way.  I took your little self into Wal~Mart that day to buy puppy food, flea shampoo, toys and anything else you said you wanted.  You fit in the palm of my hand. I took everything out of my purse and  you were a perfect fit right inside.  I dared anyone to say anything.  And then, when you were not even a four months old, you got Parvo. You stayed in the hospital for 3 or 4 days.  I did whatever I had to do to pay that bill.  It was probably something you already had.  That ‘thing’ said you already had your shots.  You survived, we caught it in time.  I was so very happy.  Then, the next thing I knew, you were a mommy.  You had 6 babies, only 3 made it.  They were huge!  They were so very beautiful.  Two black ones, one tannish red one.  Part Sharpei, part Laborador.  You did such a great job!  I was so proud of you. As if loving me wasn’t enough,  you accepted each animal that I brought home after that.  I only wanted to save them all.  The whole world of domesticated animals that were in trouble.  You were stubborn, but oh how I love you so very much.  I will miss you my friend.  May you rest in peace and may your life in Heaven be abundant.  I will see you there, but until then, please don’t forget me.

Love, Mommy

Just this side of  Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent.  His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

Author unknown…

Stacey, my BFF, thank you for sending me Rainbow Bridge.

It’s Official…

Hello my friends,

It’s official.  Number one, I am getting old.  Yep, the eye doctor told me that.  Between the ages of 40 to about 55, our eyes get old and tired.  Yes, there is an official medical term for it, but I cannot remember it, nor do I want to.  But, it’s where the eyes become blurry and either your arm isn’t long enough (can’t see up close) or you can’t see far away because of focusing problems (and age).  So, after spending several hundred dollars between the doctor visit, the lenses and the frames, I’d have to say, “I Can See Myself”!  lol  Anyway, please make it a habit to get your eyes checked yearly, as it is very important.  If you have glasses, but don’t have to wear them all of the time, PLEASE don’t forget to wear them when you should.  I didn’t because it wasn’t convenient.  Taking them off, putting them on, just became a hassle.  It was also a waste of money.  So, NOW I have to wear them all of the time because I didn’t listen.  Yes, me, the perfect one, didn’t listen.  I’m finding today more than ever that I only thought I was a perfectionist.  Well, perfection is often a deceiving word and  more than that, is confused with stubbornness in my little corner of the world.  Nonetheless, I am very thankful that I still have my sight, and even though no sight at all is the worst, I know that there are other people in the world with sight much worse than mine.

Number two on the agenda today is how my week went.  First, among other things, my daughter dented my van.  I think I blogged this earlier.  Anyway, I’m glad they were not hurt and my Jesus knows, it could’ve been worse.  It’s only a dent.  Well, last night, my son Tyler was at a friends birthday party.  They were having a bonfire and when finished, they put it out.  Someone had put an aerosol can in the fire and it started flaming up, so Tyler, trying to save the day, and the yard, ran to put it out some more.  While running, he got into a fight with a clothesline.  He ran right into it, throat first and it through him backwards.  He hit his head, was dazed and somehow gashed his head.  He has a couple of lines of  hikki-like marks on his neck as well.  So, at the emergency room (from 10:30 p.m.-1:30 a.m.), they checked his neck thoroughly, and he ended up with 2 staples in the gash.  He said the staples hurt worse than the gash.  But, I thank My Lord that he is okay and wasn’t hurt more than that.

Now, all of that being said, I think that there are evil forces in this world, because, every time I turn around, they are getting in my way.  There are little things that keep happening, (see my other blogs) that keep testing my faith.  Well, I wonder, why so many?  This is something I have to figure out for myself and pray about.  I keep thinking I am faithful, I have a very good relationship with My God, I worship Him, I pray to Him, I praise Him, I ask His forgiveness, I pray for my family, mine and their faith and safety and for my friends.  And, I go to church almost every time the doors are open to listen, learn, take notes and worship with my brothers and sisters in Christ.  So, I know I shouldn’t say this or feel it, but when is it gonna be good enough?  Is this really an evil force, or just common everyday stuff that happens to Christians?  Don’t get me wrong, I am very thankful and I know I am unworthy of His many blessings, but sometimes, you just gotta ask, when will I finally prove myself to Him?

Please take this next week to give thanks for everything you are given, not for the small material things, but for your heart, the roof over your head, your friends and family,  and the many blessings, be it abundant, or not, and most of all, for Our Savior, Jesus Christ, who died for our sins.  Try to remember, in all of the bad times, that it could be much worse…

Have a Happy Thanksgiving, a happy today, a happy tomorrow and a happy forever.

~Crazy Couple O’ Weeks~

Well, as if I hadn’t had a bad enough day, I asked my daughter to take my van and get the oil changed today.  Well, she got in a fight with a pole!  It’s only a dent, and no one was hurt, which I am so very thankful for!  It can be fixed and it’s not life threatening.  Just to re-cap these past few weeks, we had some extra money a while back, so we took the carpet out of the living room and added vinyl that looks just like a wood floor.  Then, a woman ran into my husband’s truck because she got rear-ended.  He was carried to the hospital, but is okay now.  The next week, my son shut the sliding glass door too hard and it shattered.  The week before last, my husband’s truck was twenty dollaring us to death and that same week, my son and his friend were playing around and broke his bedroom window.  Now, today, my van.  Grr!  But I haven’t lost the faith yet!  I’m hangin’ on to my God, forever.

There are still blessings to be had and I hope my many friends find them!  Oh, and, speaking of blessings, some Christians from my church went on a missions trip to The Dominican Republic.  They took 1,000 tracks with them, and passed out all of them!  Praise God and to Him be the glory!

Have a great day!

Plane Ticket

Good morning my friends

Last night I bought Dale’s plane ticket to come home for Christmas!  It was cheaper than I thought.  He will be home from December 21 to January 4.  During that time, I have to keep him busy getting the house ready to put on the market.  If it’s God’s will, it will sale before August when we need to move.  He needs to stay busy anyway, being that it’s gonna be the first Christmas without his wonderful mom.  He says he wants to go “all out” since we won’t be here next Christmas.  Little does he know, it’s already all planned out!  Parties everywhere!  We inherited all of his mom’s decorations as well, so I think I will decorate with two trees this year and make it special.  Hopefully the cats will leave them alone!  (Well, a girl can dream, can’t she?)

Tyler is looking forward to the move, he is already back in his cowboy boots and Longhorn shirts!  Didn’t I tell you he is his daddy’s mini me?  lol

Until later my peeps!

More Blessings

Friends,

Every single day, I am blessed by God’s love.  Today,  He was my pilot while driving and He kept me safe.  I am also thankful that He has given me a job, which so many people are out there without one.   He keeps my husband safe on the road and my children and grandchild safe in His arms.  I will be reading His Word tonight, after I cook dinner and clean a little bit.  I am thankful for my health, although I know I can do better.  I am thankful to have many many friends, especially the ones at church and on my Facebook.  I can honestly say, if not for them, I’d only have relatives!  lol

I will get back in touch with you after my daily devotional.  It helps me sleep and gives me the sweetest dreams.  Plus, I don’t do mornings very well!

♥tah~tah for now♥

100 Fold

Hello my friends

I have recently joined a new church and had so many blessings.  God is so awesome!  I have received nothing but abundant blessings since joining.  Recently, my husband had been praying about our finances and he got an answer to his prayers!  There just happened to be an extra 18 wheeler in the family that was for sale!  He will be driving from Texas to California to pick up and deliver hazardous materials, mostly automobile gasoline.

We now live in North Carolina.  The week he was to leave to drive to Texas, he got his little truck road ready and the next day, his check engine light came on.  So, we were questioning whether this was meant to be.  It was only a small part, some kind of filter that needed to be changed.  Done.  The next day, he was able to sale his boat, as it would just sit there doing nothing, so it wasn’t needed.  Big blessing because otherwise, he’d need to use the bill money to travel to Texas.  Well, the day he was supposed to leave, the check engine light came on again.  This time, it was found to be a hose.  Simple fix.  So, he traveled for two days and made it safely, without fail, to his destination.

The point I’m trying to make, is, even if the devil tries to get in the way, don’t let him win!  This was a small test of faith for us, and , well, I believe we passed!  All is going well!